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August 27 So painI have to honest because i am really failed my public law subject.I know....is my attitude problem crying is useless.....!i have said i will never give up because this time fall down is so pain for me...this experience iwill never forgive myself....my attitude,my everything are cause i'm failed this exam...i am never believe that i will fail bcoz i thought my strong paper which is public law can pass,unfortunately i am failed.When i open the website i am really shocked.I am crying.....So i cant fall down again.I must stand up.....just like spore economic crisis spore govt were also face it and they are success.So i must change my attitude,i know b4 exam must relax,but too much relax will cause failing in the exam....i must become stronger since i have take this experience i must get a good result in my year 1 and go to the good University to attend year3,i also hope i cn become the next successful person in HELP college,so my next aim will be gets the good marks and gets the schoolarship from Help college.Besides,i know my dad will be dissapointed,but i will make it this time i will not fail instead i will gets a good marks and the marks will be the present for my dad.This is wat i promise...i must do !
Lets see......who is the winner in the end!.............my path is still long intermediate cant do it doenst mean my year 2 also cant do it.so this is the expensive practice...so i cannot fall down.....must stand up again! I will become stronger and stronger although i dint study at crescendo but.....i got a very good lecturer in my life....the hav give me a lot of encouragement and i cant waste it, because they are my angel.....i will learn from this experience@! July 12 important diary in my life!11th July 2009: 去会馆参加一个会议，会议的目的是学生部进行交流。这是我第一次参加这个会议。我在那里学习了许多，也刚巧认识了一位来自美国的留学生。他的名字是 Jordann。他让我体会到时间不会因为人类而停止，可是偏偏人总会浪费时间。除此之外，他让我感到吃惊，因为他在上学时期，他只仅仅使用3小时来睡觉。如果没上课，他也不放松自己，他也只是利用5小时睡觉。he only used a few hours to sleep is because he needed to prayed and study as well.Everyday he need to read his textbook in 70pages,sounds like crazy rite.Compare with me i'm only have 4 subject but he has 8 subject and every subject hav to study everyday.This is why he only have a few hours to sleep.He time management is very good.This is wat i want to learn from him.Besides he also used only 2 months complete the 1000000daimaku.For me,is hard.But i want to try.Meanwhile,h also used a lot of guidance which are taken from ikeda to encouraged us.He is really hardworking but he is not the student who are only study,he also try other activities,so that relieve his stress.He also let us know education can change ur life and remind us we are the people who are very lucky,because we can attend the universities or college without any difficulties.But some of them also have financial problem,this is not really a big problem this iswhat he said.the reason is because we have Gohonzon,must praying everyday and must have a clarity wishes so that can achieve.He also taught us how to prayer,he said:" because we are human so we have our own fundamental problem."Just like me i cant focus well.So he advise i have to chanting and really change my behaviour ,otherwise i will forever remains at the boarder line.The way to improve is only understand what is ur weakers part and keep chanting to change ur own behaviour,besides,if during study feels boring or tired please imagine that ikeda daishonin is stand besides u.Cool man....i think if ikeda stand besides must scold me.So i have to improve myself,so that i can achieve higher level and achieve my dream.HE also keep reminds us that dun aim the target at the lower rank,You have to aim ur target at the highest rank at least when you get ur result is not get so bad.For example a man aim the target at the top the coconut tree but actually if he aim the taget at the clouds,then the finally result would be at the top of the coconut tree.Is sounds weird,but this is true,must aim the target high then you will get wat u want.This meeting he is really inspired me a lot,other than that,he is really pushed himself to study and chanting.So i must achieve wat i want.He also say that after u graduate you must helps the weaker people in this social rather than only earn big money.Besides,he said must overcome all the problem you face rather than avoid the problem.the person who overcome the problem,the most successful people are,so dun be afraid the problem,must challenge it.Previously,watever he faced it,is wat i face the problem now.So he advise me keep chanting you will gets whatever you want.I'm believed what he said,because he had successful so why i cant.I must change From now now on ,ntil i'm died.what he reconmmend us is a book called "the light of education" In this book include many resources which i want.Faith,practice,study!.....whoever can do it,he or she will successful in his or her life.June 28 yeah.....almost leave this area soonI have register all the things and also pay the fees as well,I can go to a new place study i'm so happy,at least i can leave here and start my new life.I know staying alone might feel lonely but at the same time i can learn independent,and also makes new friend in new University.I want thanks to all lecturer and previous lecturer(a-level).Besides,i need to say sorry again to my LLB intermediate classmates,i know my character is cause u all hates me and unlike me.I honestly and also hopes u all can successful and achieve ur dream. Goodbye to JB and say hello to the new university~ Thank you mr.suresh that always reminded us to study and prepare the sufficient notes to us thank you mr ashok that let me know my writing have to improve and give us the extra class thank you Miss ivy that give us a sufficient notes as well and also give us encouragement thank you miss linna teach me so tat my economics can pass thank you mr.gary,give us tuition so tat our a level exam can pass *sorry to madelyn: I know i make u angry and feels unbelievable that i cheat u and testing you,i'm really sorry! Form 5 gathering27 june 2009,gathering with secondary school friends.I think this is last time meet with each other.We go to sing K but dinner i not follow them because i need to go landmark.I am very sure that i not like or rather say like, i think love is more suitable.I no longer love him.I dun know why.When i saw him i feels like this is not my happiness and i dint see any future between us.
He is proud and not concern about how to save money,I think maybe he is wealthy,so he is not worried about money.
I already know what his real character,no wonder he cant gets a girlfriend.
my aim is go to UK study and also happiness forever. June 16 假期生活漫长的假期让我静下心来，让我静静地看看周围的世界。以往的假期非常的忙碌，让我不谨忘了自己而且也感觉非常累。这次的假期就只是练习我的钢琴，因为即将要考试了，这次终于是毫无任何事物干扰我的练习。另外，我发现一些事情，原来一直想拥有的爱情其实比没有来得更好，因为单身也是一种幸福。我还记得之前一直追寻不属于自己的爱情，那个时候双方不仅觉得尴尬而且他也不在联络我。我当下还以为是他不敢面对我，所以才选择逃避，实际上他根本都不喜欢我。可能他曾经尝试或真的有喜欢我，但那也是曾经的事。不仅如此，我也发觉他一直在追求他的未来，他可以不要爱情。而我也同时也喜欢他的冲进，但是喜欢归喜欢，不能当饭吃。所以回归现实，我们是不可能在一起，也难怪你会说，我不适合你。其实不是是不适合的问题而是我们俩没缘分成为情人。
不过我很感激你，因为你，我努力的迈向前方与未来，虽然不能在一起，但谢谢你让我体会到被爱的感觉，以及很幸运被你爱到，虽然可能就那么的几天。。。
我曾经爱过你，这是无法否认的，我只能把这份爱保留成美好的记忆。也希望你有机会好好的爱另外一个人！
我曾经的回忆。。。。。与不完美的爱情。。再见-许财益 June 01 taiwan tripi'm in taiwan already 3 days.today i go for hotspring this is my 1st try the hotspring.I tell you damn hot,but i know a lot of friends at here,especially spore student,their english is very good,and they quite friendly.We shares our study experienceandi'm feels happy. May 24 hope my exam can pass!aiyo....i got a bad feelings tat my exa will be gets bad...i dun wan retake and refer any paper coz i dun wan waste me time.I only can pass this exam then i can achieve my next aim.I dun wan because of this exam then lost the chance to going England.I dun wan....God please help me again.I got workhard,please give me a chance to let me achieve my dream.i got 3 months,after this i will know my result.Even though when i attempt the question i feels i am right,but i dun know leh....feels bad. I have to pass ,i must pass! April 09 my parent always going to overseasdue to my father,my mother always go to overseas.this coming saturday my mom will bring my sis going to japan.then my father want me to search for hotel,i realise the hotel cost per night at least USD 170.this already a cheapest price in tokyo.i am lucky not follow them,if i'm follow i think can spent more than tat April 04 go england no longer a dreamsince i'm study a-level until now,my dream is study in UK.i know go to england actually not difficult,as long as u hav money.I know my parent actually cannot afford the expenses but my father agree and support me going to england.But the condition is tat i hav to pass my intermediate,and after coming back from Uk must start working and also lets my young sis study in University also.
But some of my friend actually not agree with me,the feel going to UK is not worth,other than tat malaysia also can take the courses as well.But can go to overseas study is a good chance to gain some experience and also can view a beautiful environment at there.
Wait for me UK i will go u there study! March 27 Thinking go to englandjust now i am view my friend pic then i saw a lot of pic.UK view is very beautiful! i'm very admire for those who go to UK.If i have a chance i"ll be without consider!For me,go to Uk study is my dream.When i study in secondary school i didnt think can go overseasstudy.Now i sm regret,if i planning in the 1st place maybe i will not taking external course.But if think another way round maybe this is my fate.My fateis study in m'sia.Haiz.....i cant do anything.I only can futher study and strike for my future.IF i got chance in my life,i will go to UK study watever course also can regardless of any courses,i also can accept.
Only left a few months,intermediate for me still ok.I hope everything can go smoothly.if i can pass the exam.i hope can go to another college study,i know someone will say better dun go u will regret coz their class have around 100 student.But if i'm not go i think i will regret 1st.because in other college hit a 2nd upper is not a dream anymore.In our college tat's only few of the student can only hit 2nd lower.those student are clever and hardworking but they only can get a 2nd lower.i'm not saying that they r not good,but compare to other colleges our college student still lower a bit.
Maybe in future got miracle.but i still dun wan take a risk.If my father allowed i'll be go either KL or england.Hope everything go smoothly until the end. March 25 feelingsmost of the time i'm go to college,but i'm realise that sometimes student go to college only want to meet their friends and chit chat rather than really serious in study.no wonder mr.suresh not encourage us to have a study group.Actually go to college for me is very important.coz this college actually provide a good environment for study. But sometimes they don understand library for study not for chatting rite? after talk about college and study,now i wan talk about tv programme.sometimes i watch korean movie,their culture i like it,coz they are respect to each other,i not saying tat we hav no this kind of culture.just dun feel it. Do u believe actually frendship is very soon can disappear,if u destroyed u can never be find it back.so better trat ur friends with sincerely if u don u hav no friends any more.unless u can same with me, i can live without friends.can u? March 19 why i'm so slowwhy my understanding always slow than others.I want study,but my brain not cooperate with me.just left only 50few days
what i can do,is keep my energy and my power as well.
I know mr.suresh everytime scold us is wan all of us can think fast during exam.I also wan ahh,but when i know the answer i dun dare to say,i always said the answer which i'm feel inconfident.weird right?
haiz.....i hope today can better,i dun want study like the hell,i want study with happy!.
hope everything can go smoothly. February 27 i just left a few mths left!no matter how manys days i left,how tired i am,how busy i am.I need to workhard and study smart.i aim my goal.england i'm coming! chance is create to whom are prepare well.For me,i can feel the exam,i'm finish assault,battery,s47 of OAPA 1981,Rule of law.i still got material need to study! i must succeed! February 20 U think how many days still left??OMG.....times was in front of me......i want time rush me,i dun wan rush the time.u think still got how many days?81days....then....sleep,eat,shit,tv,blog,then.....study.....!give me more then 24 hours please.i hope i dint get tired durng midnight.i want energy with healthy.Look at myself.....at least i'm know wat is my sickness.aim....got.i still left realise! February 15 my special velentine's dayThis year is so special for me,i'm was so happy and satified the valentine's day.even though no boyfriend but i'm stay at home and hang out with my best friend,we chit chat about our secondary life.so....special.actually i'm not really arranged it,but i'm still happy.I went to jusco with my friend and my sis.Jusco got the wedding show,so we just go to see the beautiful gown and also survey the price for the family package.Eventually we found out a reasonable price,and i also make friends with the designer.we share a lot especially in working line and study line.My special holiday and fun. February 10 tsunami_economicyesterday i'm was going to spore,then i realised that actually economic very worst.many ppl cant get job.i'm was so lucky at least i can study and dun have the problem for eat or live.This tsunami let me learned that i hav to study smart and get good marks in the exam.And if can i hope can go to better college for continue my degree.I'm not imply current college not good,is just compare i think other college more better that this college.
Today no class,then i have more time study.i'm just finish a question in SOP.i think this topic is 2nd bulgy topic.but if i can manage i think can score.i will prepare 5 topic in every subject.
Revision class i waiting for you,i want more extra knowledge. February 06 past tensejust now i am watching a show at taiwan programme they was chat with a famous women in Taiwan陈敏熏.she is a CEO of 101.For those are go for taiwan b4 maybe u will know.she actually let many ppl hates her,she doesnt knw why.but in the end she was resign of the positon of CEO.she is very brave.she said she was resign due to too many ppl talks bad about her and her friends also not like her.I think i'm also like that.But she mention that she will not concern about them(for those r not like her) coz this will cause her suffer mental distress.other than this she also mention that the event happen in b4 just forget,du always keep on think.so i think i need to learned from her.She is CEO and also famous in Taiwan but she can handle the pressure,she is so brave.Maybe they are not like u or even not friend with you,but must be do your job persistently,if ur group was not in-cooperate with you,dun think why they dun want,think must be done without they help and without they help also can do a good job.Do it and persistent until the end.maybe they will not clap or say well done to you,but at least you doing sth good.and might be someone know.
so,i must learned form her,i will remember what she said.Dun rely on others.In my life there are only family member is very important to me.Dun think too much or over concern to friends i have to concerntrate the concern to my family member. what is the position right now?sometimes i am thinking that if i do sth good to friends is that they will think in other way.I dun know i just feel if we are really friend then why havent answer my question,is that she feel no need to be good to her or no need to go back the original position.i think they only in surface good with me but in fact is not,so this is the friend?I really dun know.So whatever happen in future, i hope they will not happen on me again.i was feel irritiated that everytime happen again and again.why always is me,am i really gets people angry or they are really hates me?
Like some of my friends they just give me advise that as long as you don do it again just do whatever is good to them.dun care so much what they think.yah,i think too much and care a lot.But sometimes i was thinking that they said they already forget what had happen,but if really forget then why i feel not like that.I hav msg her but until now haven reply my msg.i'm very sincere but in the end she cant accept,this is what the meant of friend,haha.Ridiculars.Dissapointed.i know is my fault first,but i already say sorry and sincere to her but.......not accept it.haiz....why? February 05 pursuit a peaceful worldi dun know everytime why must be sth will happen.Just like today,my friend was being suspected by her mother,i hope everything will be ok now.i'm not 38 on her matter but i just concern her.she's english is quite good,i think if she hardworks,she can gets the highest marks in this class.Friends is what? is that sth happen then help u to solve it.but from my understanding,i think not.friends is accompany u,maybe not around u but at least encourage or wishes to each other.I think tis is friends.
Honestly i'm not very close with her very much previously.But after the event,i learned sth, friends is want u to support her.If u cannot, i think the friendship will be break immediately.maybe if u read it here will not agree with me.But is true.
i hope all my friends(include not close to me or previously not friends with me)will happily forever.Regardless of family,friends or in social.This world is too reality,i really cannot comfort with it. but i know i must try,bcoz i live in this world.
jiayou,catherine.i must try to survive in the competitors world otherwise i'll be eliminated. January 31 my holiday is almost finishi likes holiday, coz i can do watever i want.haha,can also save money for the carpark.i have done my judiciary notes,i understand tis chapter wat is trying to say.actually is very easy is me think too much.i want aim the chapter already.especially the criminal law,this subject is seems like easy but actually is very hard.the difficult part is i do not know how to apply the law into the problem question.even though i know wat's happen on the case itself,but when i start to write i will feels like sth going wrong again.I want more hardwork.i want go to part 1.i must!jia you!
i will wait for u,3 years,many things will be change.But my heart always go with u.I know maybe u will not remember me,but i will still wait for u,until u not like me or until u marriage with another girl. |
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